New camera and things.

Creative Writing, Monthly Mood, Picture Diaries

000010750005

 

Hey all!

Jumping on here because 1) I’ve been pretty silent and 2) I’ve noticed that I have acquired some followers in the past couple of months!

If, you’re a new follower- Hello and welcome!

Lately, I have been brainstorming a bunch. I’m the type of person that likes to rearrange the furniture about every six months, and well, here I am – trying to figure out how to rearrange my space on the web.

I’ve been feeling quite restricted by this blog’s title and mission “plannercreative” and have been exploring the realms of illustration and photography. I am in the works of revamping my website, which will be under a completely different name. But don’t worry- planner obsessions will still be a part of it. I want to incorporate all my hobbies into a more cohesive site. So stay tuned!

For now, you can follow me on @plannercreative & @poserphotographer on Instagram.

I will be traveling to Paris soon! I’ll definitely be posting this experience on both my handles.

Hope to see you all there.

Cheers!

D.Marie

p.s. I’ve been practicing my film photography for my trip to France! Here’s a few shots from my first couple of rolls.

000010750012000010750011000010750031000010750009000010750007000010750008

Advertisements

Picture Story: Sunset State Beach with the DOLFY HD Camera Lens kit for iPhone

Picture Diaries

As a journal enthusiast, I am a fan of scrapbooking memories and using fun camera toys to add to my journal art. I recently went on a camping trip with some friends down in Santa Cruz and purchased the DOLFY Universal Professional Camera Lense Kit for my iPhone 7 capture the moments.

I get so wrapped up in the reviews that it takes me forever to finally decide on purchasing anything from Amazon. I guess the reason why I finally decided to buy this one was the carrying case that it comes in and also the 0.6x width of the wide angled lense, which seemed to be bigger than some of the other ones I was looking at.

So without further ado, here is what the DOLFY Universal Professional Camera Lense looks like in a very foggy beach setting followed by photos taken from my SONY HX80 that I am still trying to master.


Sunset State Beach, CA

 

IMG_7269

Fisheye

IMG_7293

Fisheye

IMG_7270

Micro

IMG_7313

Micro

IMG_7118

Fisheye

 

IMG_7286
Wide Angle

 

For a better look at the wide lense, here are some shots I took at work when I first opened the package:

IMG_7094

With the lense: notice my coworker on her computer to the left

IMG_7095

Without, it cuts my coworker out of the picture

DOLFY Lense Final Thoughts

I wish the wide lense was a bit wider and didn’t have the blurred out corners, but perhaps the beach wasn’t the best setting to use it on. I think a setting with more visual objects would work better- like a cityscape , as seen in my office photos. The micro lens is pretty amazing as you can tell, but you have to literally put the camera on top of the object. The fisheye lense is always fun and you can’t go wrong with that, so far my favorite one out of the three.

Redwood Forest with the SONY HX80

I am still learning all the settings on my camera, and currently playing around with the Aperture and ISO settings. This camera, although a point and shoot, has a lot of different functions. Here are the ones I’m proud of; the lighting was fairly dark but I managed to get some detail and I can proudly say #nofilter 😉

RSRSE5540UATT7570AWGUE5405 (2)


Camera Wishlist

Next on my camera list is a Holga Camera. There are a lot of different versions and I’m not sure which one to get! If you’re reading this and you have one, please do share!

Thanks for reading, D. Marie

 

An Ode the The Richmond District- San Francisco

Creative Writing
*feature photo by Andrew Nassih

I have been slowly packing up my room of six years in San Francisco. When I think back on the past two times I have moved in my adult life, it’s been an interesting experience to meet this unsettling, unsure, excited, anxious feeling that seems all so familiar but so foreign and complex at the same time. I’ve been here before, but my spectacles held a different shade.

These familiar, yet unfamiliar feelings- They’re like walking through the same dream, same scenario, same lines, but in different themed costumes… Being trapped in a sort of deja vu, that you just can’t get a grasp of. Life is funny in that way; I guess feelings, emotions- they orbit like the planets. Some pulled closer than others, occurring and reoccurring more frequently. Some having more obvious effects on how we live and dissect life.

Now at this stage in my life, I am face to face again with this feeling of uncertainty, and resurrecting insecurities covered with uncontrollable excitement as I try to see what it looks like on the other side of the tunnel.  Then there are the occasional waves of retrospective sadness as you realize your attachments to your nest, your nest that has nourished your soul for so long.


An Ode to the Richmond District, SF

img_5259

An Ode to the past six years of my life.

Although I am not moving far away from you, I’ll still feel like I’ll be worlds away.

I write to you now from the comfortable, creaky, IKEA framed bed, nestled in the quiet back corner of my Victorian flat.  I’ll be leaving my three lovely, quirky roommates, who have shared the ebb and flow of all the particles that have made me me.

DSC02449

You have housed a great chunk of my life and provided a safe haven of park life, coffee shops, and Genki crepes.

You have opened my eyes to a hidden world of Burmese food and Szechuan cuisine; you’ve made this LA girl miss the fog when it’s gone – The fog, whose name is Karl by the way…

Gone will be the ocean breeze awaiting me after a long day across town. Gone will be the foggy haze, Muni delays, and the conditioned inconveniences of carting half my life downtown in my backpack.

I will miss your peaceful laundromats and friendly neighbors who leave great pieces of furniture out on the street.

And to my room, I leave you now like a shell to a cocoon. Your walls may be thin, so thin that at night I can here my neighbor snoring; and the paint on your walls may be a little chipped- but to me there couldn’t have been a more perfect place to grow in San Francisco, than in this back room with the bay window overlooking the smashed gardens.

In this new moon, this resurrected orbit of emotions, confidence shines through in knowing that the time spent here has been tried, TOUGH, and true. I’ve cried, cursed, laughed, and strummed the guitar super loud while singing at the top of my lungs when no one was home. I’ve re-arranged you about a million times, each time bringing me new inspiration. I miss you everyday when I go to work. I’ll miss you even more when I’m gone.

Now take me to the sunny side- The Tenderloin, where the walls will be even thinner, the air less ocean breezy, and the Indian food a-plenty; the views a bit more gritty and the commute (time) a bit less shitty.

Cheers to you Richmond District and to this place I’ve called my home. I’m really, really gonna miss you.

img_5255

* The 5 Fulton bus connecting you from Ocean Beach to Downtown, Howard and Main Street.

Monthly Mood: New Moon, New Skin, New Fire.

Monthly Mood

Finally a four day weekend! Can I get an Amen?!? This monthly mood is more of a recap of all the craziness that happened in June and the final culmination of which I am about to drop in 3..2..1..

Yesterday, my boyfriend and I just signed our first lease to a tiny little studio downtown.

I still have to take a moment and let that all settle in when I say it out loud (or type it out loud?). In the six years I’ve lived in San Francisco, I’ve been fortunate enough to live in one house, with people I get along with, and in a wonderful neighborhood – the Richmond District. Now I’m packing up my beautiful spacious bedroom and moving into the Tenderloin! In Defense of the Tenderloin, Here is the view from our new balcony:

img_5155

I’m really excited about this move. So many craft projects to try, so much space to organize (I am a Virgo, I just can’t help myself..)  and a whole new chapter to create in this city.  I look forward to sharing some new inspiration with you all.

I’ve been obsessing  over studio layouts, DIY home decor, and balcony gardens on Pinterest. If you’re on there, follow my boards!

This month my good friend Andrew Nassih  was in town from Los Angeles and we did a quick photo shoot rendezvous in my new hood 😉 We didn’t plan it this way, I actually had no idea I would be moving  at the point these pictures were taken; I also had no idea this photo shoot was going to happen! But the timing couldn’t have been better. Check out his work – I love the grit to his style and I’m stoked that I get to be a part of the collection.

img_4964img_4963

As the last bits of June unfolded, especially after the new moon, I’ve felt a need to purge and recenter my inspiration. Now with this new move, July will be about shedding my old skin, and rebuilding the fire. I look forward to seeing you all on the other side!

Thanks for stopping by, more to come! I  Just wanted to drop a line.

D. Marie

June Creative: AvocadaMamma

Monthly Creatives

Discover My Favorite Creatives!

This segment is dedicated to all my creative muses. Each one of them on the daily hustle, working hard to support what they love the most. Whether it’s music, art, personalities, jewelry, or clothing, I support it all. I hope you take the time to check out their pages, like their socials, and show them some love.


Taylor & Nathaniel

Creators of AvocadaMamma: A multi-platform resource for recipes, travel/meal prep help, guides to eating and products to shop for.

Meet my beautiful friends Taylor and Nathaniel! Aren’t they cute? 😉 I met these two while I was living in LA. Both of them have such a unique, pure glow, that once you meet them it’s no wonder these two souls were meant to connect and CREATE!

Nathaniel is a photographer, currently attending film school. You can check out his photography and latest projects at nathanielperales.com. Taylor is currently pursuing acting, and was recently in the Hollywood Fringe Festival production “Confessions of an Arab Woman” .

When I first saw their AvocadaMamma Youtube video pop up on my Facebook feed, I was so excited for them because it just made so much sense! I enjoyed catching up with them on their latest projects and hope you enjoy this interview! As creative people, it’s always refreshing to connect with other creative minds, who also have a razor focused, business mindset! These two are killin’ it and they’ve given me a new wave of inspiration, so thank you Taylor and Nathaniel!

Don’t forget to (PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE) subscribe and like them on YOUTUBE and INSTAGRAM! ❤


How would you describe your art?

We believe in creating a better world through educating people to change their dieting/lifestyles. We want people to understand that it’s possible to live longer, feel better and sustain yourself longer by eating healthier. So we are using Taylor’s background in acting for the front of the camera and Nathaniel’s skills as a photographer/director to create Avocadamama. A multi-platform resource for recipes, travel/meal prep help, guides to eating and products to shop for.

How long have you been working on your craft, how do you feel about where you are right now and what are you excited about for the future as an artist?

T: We started this in January. We began with making simple recipes in my kitchen, and now we’ve expanded a little further. We’re now making travel videos, reviewing products, reviewing restaurants, and we’re using our knowledge to create small videos for others to use for guidance on the vegan lifestyle. Eventually, we’d like to create an easy vegan 1 month guide to follow for our followers to have a way to understand what is the easiest, healthiest way to loose weight and change their eating habits for a long period of time, not just until they lose weight.

N: I feel like we’re in a perfect place. At this point, this is just really fun for us. I get to learn how to cook and teach others how to cook while practicing my craft. And Taylor gets to think about food in a way she hasn’t before because this is about educating people. I’m excited for our future episodes as I continue to practice and play with different ways of presenting the information. There’s definitely a craft with “How to” do something.

When and how did you meet?

T: We actually met on the streets of Pasadena, CA. It was this back and forth of seeing each other for a few months, waving, smiling at each other and wanting to say “hi” but never stopping to talk. We’d be so close too, seeing each other where Nathaniel worked, one time he chased after me on the streets of Old Town Pasadena from a cafe to invite me to his art show but I wasn’t able to go. I eventually came to terms that I would never see him again and then we saw each other a couple weeks later and finally exchanged numbers! That was 5 years ago in October.

N: It was good times. 😍

Tell me about the Ah-ha moment you and Nathaniel had when the first fruition of AvocadaMama came about?

T: We’d actually talked about it for a while now. Nathaniel would tell me all the time how he thought my talent in the kitchen would make a great Youtube channel and he could do the filming. It’s funny because we put it off for so long until finally one night it happened by chance because we were planning to grill the Beyond Burger from Beyond Meat and Nathaniel said “lets film it and see what happens”. Then we got such a great response from our peers so we decided to just go for it.

N: When we decided to film that first episode about the Beyond Meat Burgers I looked at it as a challenge and to use my skills as a film editor to make something interesting that people might want to watch. Taylor’s quirky personality is so addicting to watch, and I think my editing style matches her weirdness hahaha so after watching the footage we had, and the edit that came from it, I knew there was something special here.

18341756_10155134733613449_1027635513468113387_n

Both of you have a professional mindset when talking about your powers combined, What is the creative process when it comes to hashing out business plans? Is it a fluid conversation or is it something you set limits and boundaries to? What are the benefits of dating your business partner?

N: It’s actually really awesome. We always talk about our passions and dreams together so there’s not really any boundaries. The coolest part about this, is we love food anyway. We love eating together and talking together and going out to restaurants. So if anything, it’s just brought us closer because it gives us more reasons to hang out and create stuff. As far as like a formal business plan, we mainly use this app called Quip http://quip.com to write and share our ideas with each other. It has all our ideas spread out and organized in folders. Whenever one of us updates a file, the other person gets updated. It’s really easy to use. We have many plans for our future and the hardest challenge so far is time and the fact that we don’t live together. I think as we continue to organize our workflow we will have to set specific hours a side to just do Avocadamama. Because when we’re together we definitely do like to lolligag and just spend time together haha.

What is the creative process when it comes to making a video? (do you have a script, improv, etc.)

T: We use a joint project folder app quip as Nathaniel mentioned, and we have a list of foods we want to make. We usually pick a recipe based on the weather / time of year / holiday coming up.

N: We don’t really have a script but we do talk about what we want to accomplish, in what order the episode will go and what steps are in the recipe. We do a lot of talking and working together to figure out what we want. Usually we’ll make mistakes and have to re-shoot certain lines because Taylor says “umm” and pauses in between thoughts a lot. She’s a little spacey sometimes. LOL. We’re still optimizing this aspect of our channel, as any business continues to morph and define their strategy. Even though we’re like 13 episodes in, we’re definitely still defining ourselves. I don’t think you ever stop growing and every new episode is a new discovery in this awesome process.

18446622_10213840344709596_7295743551246432860_n

What is your mission statement? What is your ultimate goal?

N: I would say our mission statement is to educate people about a vegan, plant-based lifestyle in a fun and endearing way. A lot of people in my life look at a plant-based lifestyle as something difficult, snobby or too restricting and what we’re trying to show people is that it is definitely not difficult and can actually open you up to a lot of foods you wouldn’t really try with the normal American diet. I think you can tell from our personalities in our videos that this isn’t a snobby thing, we’re not talking down to anybody and we’re not begging for people to not eat meat. We’re just saying, hey if you’re having health problems or your trying to lose weight or live a healthier lifestyle we have some really good recommendations and recipes that can help you try something new that tastes good and is really good for you.

What project(s) for AvocadaMama are you working on right now that you’re excited about?

T: Taking Avocadamama further with our reach. Right now we get a ton of traffic from family and friends, but we really want to go beyond that and influence people all over the world. But for now we’re traveling a lot so we’ll be visiting some awesome vegan restaurants that we’ll get to blog about spread the word about their food.

N: We got a couple of ideas up our sleeves. Our website is almost finished which will act as a larger resource for people looking for more information than our videos. We are going to be writing articles about places we eat, different ingredients we use and general plant-based lifestyle advice. We’ll also have opinion pieces about vegan culture as well. We are also beginning to think about products. Taylor wore these awesome pants that she made at the Eat Drink Vegan fest and she’s thinking about making them into a product we sell. We also want to recycle old clothes and put our logo or vegan text that people can buy. Taylor mentioned earlier a “getting started being vegan 30 day guide” that we’re in the process of outlining and designing. A lot of stuff in the pipeline that we’re both very excited for.

IMG_2126

As LA residents, what are your favorite vegan restaurants?

T: Oh there are so many delicious spots in LA. I love raw food and there’s a place called Sun Cafe that has really good food. For go-to delicious fast vegan food I love Veggie Grill. There’s a vegan sushi place that I love so much called Shojin, located in a mall in Little Tokyo. It’s so random but I love the food, they use mushrooms to make the scallops on a “baked scallop roll”! I’m drooling just thinking about it!

N: One of my favorite spots is Kitchen Mouse. Another great one is called Gracias Madre by the same people that own Cafe Gratitiude and Sage. I also love the Munch Truck in Highland Park on Fridays. Also, Organix is super bomb.

Where are some places on your vegan destination wish list?

T: Well actually I’ve always been interested in the vegan food in New Orleans, and low and behold, we just got tickets to go out there for my birthday in October! So we’ll be checking out the spots out there. I’m also really interested in exploring vegan food in middle America and checking out the places where people with less options could find meals and ways to modify local eats to be vegan. Maybe we’ll have to do a road trip some day!

N: Road trip would be super awesome. Avocadamama a la Anthony Bourdain style.

DSC08892


Thanks for stopping by! Stay tuned for more unique creatives ❤

The Journal

img_4273img_4295img_4334

The Trip

I’ve driven through Albuquerque a few times when I was a freshman in college, I always wanted to go back to New Mexico, the skyline was always so mesmerizing…

… Luckily, my boyfriend’s brother recently moved out to Santa Fe, so it served as the perfect opportunity to take a trip to the Land of Enchantment.

Lesson Number 1: Always ask for Christmas and always get that traveler’s insurance!

We woke up late, missed our flight, didn’t have the traveler’s insurance, so the most realistic option was to rent a car and drive! Yikes! I still can’t believe we did that! We lost the first day, but I got to spend that extra EXTRA quality time with my boyfriend…needless to say, he survived. 😉

There is so much to do in New Mexico, we barely scratched the surface. Unfortunately the Taos Pueblo was closed, I couldn’t snap a photo =( #sad. But that’s OK, I think there is a longer road trip across America in my future.

Now let’s talk about Christmas.

The first thing I learned in Santa Fe was how to order my food Christmas! The chili is a staple in New Mexican cuisine. When you order a burrito (for instance) they ask if you want it smothered in green chili sauce, red chili sauce, or Christmas- a combination of both. ALWAYS get Christmas, it’s like getting slapped in the face from both sides, so you feel a sense of balance. Factoid: After the chilies have been transferred into the sun to harden, the hotter the sun the spicier the chili

The food was so good, that once it was put in front of me, I didn’t even think about social media, I just shoved it all in my face! Ain’t nobody got time for photos when your eating Christmas chili rellenos! Here is a list of all the places I highly recommend:

My New Mexico Foodie List:

The ShedTHE place for brunch right in the middle of the historic plaza. This place is tucked away in little courtyard with just the right amount of sunlight and greenery. I had the blue corn burrito with “Christmas” sauce.

Tesque Village Market – Direct from their website they describe themselves as “a chic general store with a hipster aesthetic” It resembles an old world trading post and is located in a part of Santa Fe county that looks like a little swamp bayou town. *Disclaimer: the closest I’ve ever been to the bayou is at Disneyland’s Haunted Mansion ride* They open really early, and have the BEST baked goods. If you’re like Oprah, and you LOVE bread, then you’ll have to check this place out.

Padillas New Mexican Kitchen – This one is located in Albuquerque. After hiking Tent Rock, we were on the hunt to find true New Mexican food, and we found the jackpot here. It is located near Midtown/University area and looks like a whole lotta nothing from the front. Once you walk in, you will notice you have walked into something special, the scene will surprise you in that classic-Albuquerque-senior citizen-mafia-type of hang out. Here they have the classic sopaipillas, a fried doughy bread that you top with honey.

Taos Brewing Co. – There are two locations: El Prado and Taos. We went to both! Both were beautiful with a great atmosphere. Perfect for hanging outside on a beautiful day.

Sugars – This was another local tip, we would have driven right past it on our way to Taos! Sugars is named after the family dog, and is located in the middle of nowhere. Good news, they serve veggie burgers 😉

Cowgirl BBQ – One of the few spots open late, with live music and family friendly atmosphere. Here I stuffed my face with the Chile Relleno, which is a local favorite. Again, Christmas.

Lesson #2: Magical washer machines and screen savers really do exist. 

Don’t believe me? Check out Meow Wolf in Santa Fe, an immersive art installation that will take you back to the wild imagination you had as a kid. If you followed my story on Instagram (@plannercreative), then you definitely saw the magic!

*See washer machine portal below*

My New Mexico Itinerary:

Day One

Hauled a$$ from San Francisco. We had dinner in Williams, AZ where they have a nice main street reminiscent of the ol’ Route 66. There were beautiful cars lined up for the perfect vintage selfie and all the old signs lit up with neon lights. Definitely somewhere I would stay if I wasn’t in a rush to get to my destination.

Day Two

Santa Fe Plaza & Meow Wolf  – The House of Eternal Return aka magic washer machine portal.

Day Three

Rio Grande Gorge Bridge, Taos & Ojo Caliente Mineral Springs – Perhaps my one of my favorites. We went to the hot springs after 6pm where they offer a discounted price. Each mineral bath has different healing powers and each one looks unique pushed up against the desert mountains. I was in so much awe, I didn’t want to ruin the moment by taking pictures, I just wanted to take it all in.

Day Four

Tesque Village Market & Kasha-Katuwe Tent Rocks National Monument – Walking through Tent Rock was unreal. I felt like I was walking through my screen saver! Absolutely breathtaking.

Day five

Travel day. But don’t worry, we took a plane this time.

It was a short but relaxing trip and such a nice contrast to my life in San Francisco. Even though we only had three full days, the pace of life made them feel long; not to mention the expansiveness of the blue sky adding to the illusion of open space and open mind. I look forward to my next visit, and I think I will actually plan to drive.


Photos Taken with the Cybershot Sony Hx80 – No Filters.

IMG_3944f1dd31d1-9947-4c80-bd02-2aaddb8cb7a8IMG_3895image37231381-0daa-46d6-a4d7-cf2a22ad5ef3IMG_4246e4d80063-2458-4e2d-8e45-774e0f76e4da1b2b53e6-2f45-4d2f-8892-d739ff7c6a61f856d815-9096-44c7-a858-e6c76d36acf03650ca3a-f298-4f8a-97fc-251b34af80afa0f2d1b2-405e-440e-a753-f580075df1bdimg_41582c6d29fe-e174-4e8d-aceb-8b4cf2f0ad42FullSizeRender (3)img_4173img_4201img_3729

Fin.

 

 

Creative Writing, Picture Diaries

Picture Story: San Diego, CA

Picture Diaries

Products Used:

HP Sprocket $139

Happy Planner Mini $12.99

Me and My Big Ideas Sticker Pack: $20

Sony Hx80 $340


I spent Easter weekend with the family in San Diego. It was actually supposed to be the ‘Grandparent’s weekend’ (my parents, my nephews; my aunt and uncle, and my two nieces) but I decided to crash the party.

Spending time with family completely unravels me to the core. It’s hard to go back to work after a weekend full of happiness and love pumping through my veins!

I recently purchased the HP Sprocket printer and couldn’t wait to use it for this trip. It’s really taken my planner journal to a whole new level! My planner addiction has completely gone overboard but I love it. 😉

Here’s a little recap of my favorites this weekend as well as how I captured it in my planner.

Enjoy!


Favorite Discovery: Attention fellow coffee shop dwellers!

Lestat’s in North Park is open 24/7!!! One of my favorite things to do on a day off is to wake up early, and sit in a coffee shop to catch up on my favorite blogs and the news…. I was very pleased to stumble across this.

img_2135

Favorite Day: Hiking Sunset Cliffs Natural Park

This was my first day in San Diego, and as you can see the weather was beautiful. It was nice to get out of foggy, rainy San Francisco and take all this vibrant color in.

img_2130img_2132

Favorite Photo: Because the Middle Child is the Best aka Middle Child Syndrome

The three of us haven’t been together since Christmas, so it was fun just messing with each other and acting ridiculous.

ad2c5197-c79b-4c1f-a509-ac9dd518e04a


How I captured the weekend: HP Sprocket & Happy Planner Mini

This planner addiction is completely contagious and I got my sister into it last year when I bought her a Classic Happy Planner for her birthday. We both enjoy creating so it was an easy sell; but since then, we always find a way to go to Michaels to feed our crafty addiction and stock up on planner goodies. On the third day, we got our coupons ready and went shopping! I even got my nephews excited about making a memory sticker book. Living far away from them, using my printer and teaching them how to scrapbook has been a fun activity that we can keep together from a distance. I’ve already sent them a little card with some stickers to add to it <3.

img_2199img_2356

Yours Truly,

D. Marie

Follow my blog with Bloglovin

Keeping Up with the Current – A poem.

Creative Writing

Lying here like a rock under current

Anxieties of today, tomorrow, and yesterday gently sweep over me

like a sparkling golden water blanket.

Always sliding forward. Moving fast and noisily into the deep silent blue beyond.

A rock lying on it’s back looking up into the sun rays.

As sea foam fizzles off the sand.

Rock belly bottom.

Daydreaming

Creative Writing, Picture Diaries

img_1307


I remember this day. It was the best part of the whole trip. It was the moment I finally let go of all the all my preconceived notions.  Jumping on that scooter and having the ability to roam foreign territory on our own, gave me the confidence to strip away the dependencies that made me feel boxed in my own judgement. That moment was what life should be about: floating, feeling – free.

I’ve been contemplating a lot lately. Each day as I come home from work I can’t help but feel a bit of angst and heavy emptiness. My whole day gone, my eyes burn, and my muscles continue to get soft as I sit in front of a computer for 10 hours a day. I try really hard to maintain my work – life balance: I work out 2 – 3 times a week, I play in a classical quartet one night a week, I socialize with friends, I Netflix and chill, I live in an awesome city, I have health benefits, I have the weekends off… the blessings go on and on. But every Sunday night, as I get myself ready for the week, I can’t help but feel a sense of loss. What have I done wrong along the road? I’ve always listened to my parents and my mentors. I finished school, which was a struggle and a half, I really wanted to become a traveling artist – of what, I have no clue…. I took the job that not only would accelerate my career, but one that also helps others. Everyday I think, there has to be more than this, working for the machine.

Why do we work so hard for such a small blimp in time, to come back into the grind, and forget about what truly is mine – time, my day and my night- should be spent as if I own it. Time spent should be for me. I’ve been daydreaming with my boyfriend lately, about this idea of dropping everything and working on organic farms around the world, touching the earth, learning how to survive on our own. We keep toying with the idea, and as much as I want to do it, I am completely terrified. We made a promise to keep pushing each other, the only thing stopping us is ourselves.

We have a goal set for January 2018; and I’m thinking of Portugal.